mata saya tgh bengkak :(
baru lepas nangis. dh berhenti but hati still menangis T_______________T

sgt memalukan
my boss was around mase emosi saya tgh tak stabil tadi
siap suara crack okay
cess
i cant believe i was betrayed by my ownslef
dah lama tak nangis kat ofis
hehehe
if u must know, last was like 6-7 years ago mase mula2 masuk keja
my (ex) boss buli
but how bad he is or people say he is, i still look up to him.
banyak belajar and opportunity given :))

anyways
the reason of all this depressing matters is that
i just took my sisters letter offer
and she was offered quite a high pay
more than what im gettting now!!! T_________________T
although not in the same company but still......
isk isk isk

no dont get me wrong
saya langsung tak jeles
LANGSUNG TAK
its just that im so pitiful of my ownself
i don't think my bloody company is appreciating me enough
but then again
its not just me, kawan2 saya juga
so who am i to complain isk isk nangis skali algi T_____________T

ok malas dah nk cakap pasal ni (saya tipu)
biarla diri ini melayan perasan sendiri (saya tipu lagi)

ok ive cheered up abit after talking to jeslyn and jagat about some other matters :))

anyways mase tgh emosi tadi my boss gave me some motivation
he was there mase at that time
and i was ranting to him heheh
tapi watever he told telah masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan
didnt mean to isk isk
but i always remember another set of words of his: " rezeki orang masing2..."

so skarang that statement is currently on repeat mode

" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
crap
*istighfar*
" rezeki orang masing2..."
" rezeki orang masing2..."
..............,.